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Saturday, July 11, 2009

ups and downs

that sunshine after the rain is always the best =D
saw a rainbow after work..
that's prolly the best thing for the whole of today.

today didn't really start that well.
after tossing and turning the whole night before, i was pretty much getting cranky.
as i was walking to the mrt, there was a far bit of lightning - it'd surely rain.
true enough, after i clocked in for work and changed the entire sky over DL was dusk dark
rained and stopped a couple of times.. it just poured a moment ago

i guess it's sumtimes better to keep silent
there's really no point retorting =(
kinda brought my mood down today
but at least i didn't blow.

the upside?
got to interact more with Pet n Pann =D
Ah Neh came by with coconuts! timely!
at least someone understands and know wad it's like
there's comfort in knowing =)
last but not least, that rainbow.
it wasn't very prominent
but it was there.
after past few days/wks of crazy happenings
this actually brings hope and peace of mind

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

can't she just forward me the email??
her reply to my request - "...nothing much, just mentioned that you were selected.."
what now? nothing? just left for the sch to process? hahaha
hope that there's no interview!! =S
everything smooth smooth frm now on..

wonder wad i'm supposed to do there..
hopefully not paste stickers of course =x

i think we're back on track! =)

r we? LOL..

o wells~ i think long-term..

don't even try to decode this para. hahaha..

now that it's raining, i'm dreading even more to step out of the house!

wad's the worst that can happen if i absent myself from this 1.5hr talk??

LOL.. definitely tempting.

come on! going to sch just for that?!?! =(

***************************************

[EDIT]

!^!%#$$&!@

obviously i'm pissed.

i knew it.

once again, happy for nothing.

HSA first decides to offer a place and now decides to take it away. =((

really no mood to do anything now..

how can they be so fickle???

oh man, i totally wanna rant even more now.

it's really disappointments after disappointments

on..off..on..off..on..off..

so much for being excited about it at the beginning

back at one.

Monday, July 06, 2009

holding

i'm gonna test how long i can hold my breath.

today was very "happening"
- BPT pract tis wed was cancelled, leaving only that talk at 4pm.
- supposedly no TE pract on thurs, unless he changes his mind.
- TE lec at 10am tmr instead of 9.
- P.C told Phy n myself that if things get better, Aus OSIP may come back on.. that's even though A has alr sent out that "official" email cancelling it. =.=" can just make up their mind?? SIGH.

- A called me at 5.50pm to say that i was chosen for China OSIP..
my first thought: Oh S**t!
i tot that since i was and appeared to be so undecided that i wasn't gonna get selected! LOL.

BUT.. she continued to say that HSA replied!
First reaction: HUH?! o.O What the....?!?!? PTL!! lol..
even though i didn't put down any contact on TP side, they managed to contact someone from BMS?? not BIO?

turned down China OSIP and decided to go with HSA instead..
the nerve-wrecking thing is that i didn't receive any email from HSA!! =(
A says she'll settle things with HSA.. o wells~ just hope that it's exactly wad i intended to self-secure!

really holding my breath.
don't wish for this to be another disappointment..
i know, i should be optimistic
just that it has happened time and time again
really praying that everything goes on smoothly from here on.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

it's all in the mind

i dislike the fact that i'm so easily affected by you.
why?? i'm not even close to you..
haven't known u for very long nor very well.
just really turned off by your attitude
to people, to things.. makes me wonder how u survive.
by your looks?? =S

i should set my mind to "switch off" from you.
*******************************************

cool rainy day..
stark contrast frm ytd at work.
sweltering hot!
thus i'm once again with distinct ugly tanlines!
o wells~

i wanna just snuggle under my covers and simply do nothing at all
how tempting.. lol

done with HFLA thingy for TE PBL 1 & 2.
looking to strike more things off to-do list!

i've got an idea for MP
BUT, it's very unlikely to be carried out.
WHY? Bcos i know.
WH in MMs. hmmm..

decided against China OSIP..
not really interested.
just that friday, YM asked if i wanna do internship at UWS
HAHAHAHA!!!
one big round and back again?!?!
but, he couldn't tell me wad's the proj abt.. =.="
say roy haven't confirm

HSA still hasn't replied
i hope i make the right decision
actually, there's no right or wrong
well, hope that i make a choice that i won't regret!
*******************************************

LAST pract was...
the blood just didn't wanna come out!
i was alr pressing so hard man..
i think that poor boy just had blood that's really thick =S

Thursday, July 02, 2009

how should i plan for nxt wed??

due to a greatly disappointing news that there would be a compulsory talk for TE students at 4pm then. =((
if there wasn't like it was supposed to be, i'd end sch at latest 12pm.
now? 5.30pm, if it doesn't drag..
to make things worse, it's on something i'm entirely not interested about - social entrepreneurship.

thought that it'd really be a good time to get all work in order..
looks like i was wrong =(

i just want to slp.
don't know why.. but, just want to.

i wonder how our minds work.
in sync with our other organs?
doesn't quite seem like it..
it's a bit nerve wrecking
exasperating? nah.. prolly not to that point.
i suddenly thought of "genie in a bottle"
O WELLS~

i realise i just can't speak/write out
not here anyways..
it's always in codes. rite? haha..
GO FIGURE!
makes it more interesting doesn't it =D LOL.
i know it gets on the nerves of some ppl, i can only say sorry!

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

想歪歪的人！
请不要误会，也不要胡思乱想喔！
我所提到的某某不是你们所想到的。hahaha

today was entertaining and kinda tiring.
Jen was the all-time entertainer, so was the convo on finding a better-half for Cher!
kinda draggy due to LAST lec.. haha.
the upside, no lec nxt wed! woohoo!

tmr onwards, a series of never ending assignments and tests! =D

thinking abt China OSIP over and over
but i'm really praying that HSA replies soon
oh man, it's really "what now?".. =(
should i approach linda as back-up??

gotta increase productivity!
gotta stop thinking about irrelevant things!
gotta move on!
gotta keep moving!

okies, i kinda suck at this kinda self-motivation by typing it out.
it doesn't quire work for me actually =S hahah

"Go for it. Life's too short rite?"
i wish i had the courage.
i wish i had some signs.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Immuned.

received the email mentioning the official cancellation of the OSIP to Aussie.
don't quite know wad to make of it..
prolly disappointed that we weren't first informed before the email?
or was it that i saw the email after reading the news that countries were no longer being listed?
of cos, it doesn't quite make any sense to cancel then..
but honestly, no extreme feeling that i ought to have.

- still waiting for a reply frm HSA
- planning to go for Genomar interview to check out the proj
- BPT proj (24 July)
- TE PBL 1 & 2
- LAST tut (3rd July)
- BPT tut quiz (10th July)

skipped BPT lec today cos of stomach upset.
still feeling quite bad. =(
argh. ITAS food!
result:
- sleep deprivation
- no appetite
- low productivity
- lousy mood
i've never really had stomach upset before.. =S

好朋友，我希望我们之间的友情永不变
如果有所改变，也只是变得更好。
不知如何解释，但我就是有种强烈的感觉
你将是我的知己。
mutual? haha.. don't know!

who knows wad the future holds..
but i do want to know though.. lol
hmmm.. simply not in a very good mood


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LOL.. o wells~ i think long-term.. don't even try to decode this para. hahaha.. now that it's raining, i'm dreading even more to step out of the house! wad's the worst that can happen if i absent myself from this 1.5hr talk?? LOL.. definitely tempting. come on! going to sch just for that?!?! =( ************************************* [EDIT] !^!%#$$&!@ obviously i'm pissed. i knew it. once again, happy for nothing. HSA first decides to offer a place and now decides to take it away. =(( really no mood to do anything now.. how can they be so fickle??? oh man, i totally wanna rant even more now. it's really disappointments after disappointments on..off..on..off..on..off.. so much for being excited about it at the beginning back at one. Wednesday, July 08, 2009 · Monday, July 06, 2009 holding i'm gonna test how long i can hold my breath. today was very "happening" - BPT pract tis wed was cancelled, leaving only that talk at 4pm. - supposedly no TE pract on thurs, unless he changes his mind. - TE lec at 10am tmr instead of 9. - P.C told Phy n myself that if things get better, Aus OSIP may come back on.. that's even though A has alr sent out that "official" email cancelling it. =.=" can just make up their mind?? SIGH. - A called me at 5.50pm to say that i was chosen for China OSIP.. my first thought: Oh St! i tot that since i was and appeared to be so undecided that i wasn't gonna get selected! LOL. BUT.. she continued to say that HSA replied! First reaction: HUH?! o.O What the....?!?!? PTL!! lol.. even though i didn't put down any contact on TP side, they managed to contact someone from BMS?? not BIO? turned down China OSIP and decided to go with HSA instead.. the nerve-wrecking thing is that i didn't receive any email from HSA!! =( A says she'll settle things with HSA.. o wells~ just hope that it's exactly wad i intended to self-secure! really holding my breath. don't wish for this to be another disappointment.. i know, i should be optimistic just that it has happened time and time again really praying that everything goes on smoothly from here on. Monday, July 06, 2009 · Sunday, July 05, 2009 it's all in the mind i dislike the fact that i'm so easily affected by you. why?? i'm not even close to you.. haven't known u for very long nor very well. just really turned off by your attitude to people, to things.. makes me wonder how u survive. by your looks?? =S i should set my mind to "switch off" from you. ***************************************** cool rainy day.. stark contrast frm ytd at work. sweltering hot! thus i'm once again with distinct ugly tanlines! o wells~ i wanna just snuggle under my covers and simply do nothing at all how tempting.. lol done with HFLA thingy for TE PBL 1 & 2. looking to strike more things off to-do list! i've got an idea for MP BUT, it's very unlikely to be carried out. WHY? Bcos i know. WH in MMs. hmmm.. decided against China OSIP.. not really interested. just that friday, YM asked if i wanna do internship at UWS HAHAHAHA!!! one big round and back again?!?! but, he couldn't tell me wad's the proj abt.. =.=" say roy haven't confirm HSA still hasn't replied i hope i make the right decision actually, there's no right or wrong well, hope that i make a choice that i won't regret! ***************************************** LAST pract was... the blood just didn't wanna come out! i was alr pressing so hard man.. i think that poor boy just had blood that's really thick =S Sunday, July 05, 2009 · Thursday, July 02, 2009 how should i plan for nxt wed?? due to a greatly disappointing news that there would be a compulsory talk for TE students at 4pm then. =(( if there wasn't like it was supposed to be, i'd end sch at latest 12pm. now? 5.30pm, if it doesn't drag.. to make things worse, it's on something i'm entirely not interested about - social entrepreneurship. thought that it'd really be a good time to get all work in order.. looks like i was wrong =( i just want to slp. don't know why.. but, just want to. i wonder how our minds work. in sync with our other organs? doesn't quite seem like it.. it's a bit nerve wrecking exasperating? nah.. prolly not to that point. i suddenly thought of "genie in a bottle" O WELLS~ i realise i just can't speak/write out not here anyways.. it's always in codes. rite? haha.. GO FIGURE! makes it more interesting doesn't it =D LOL. i know it gets on the nerves of some ppl, i can only say sorry! Thursday, July 02, 2009 · Wednesday, July 01, 2009 想歪歪的人！请不要误会，也不要胡思乱想喔！我所提到的某某不是你们所想到的。hahaha today was entertaining and kinda tiring. Jen was the all-time entertainer, so was the convo on finding a better-half for Cher! kinda draggy due to LAST lec.. haha. the upside, no lec nxt wed! woohoo! tmr onwards, a series of never ending assignments and tests! =D thinking abt China OSIP over and over but i'm really praying that HSA replies soon oh man, it's really "what now?".. =( should i approach linda as back-up?? gotta increase productivity! gotta stop thinking about irrelevant things! gotta move on! gotta keep moving! okies, i kinda suck at this kinda self-motivation by typing it out. it doesn't quire work for me actually =S hahah "Go for it. Life's too short rite?" i wish i had the courage. i wish i had some signs. Wednesday, July 01, 2009 · Tuesday, June 30, 2009 Immuned. received the email mentioning the official cancellation of the OSIP to Aussie. don't quite know wad to make of it.. prolly disappointed that we weren't first informed before the email? or was it that i saw the email after reading the news that countries were no longer being listed? of cos, it doesn't quite make any sense to cancel then.. but honestly, no extreme feeling that i ought to have. - still waiting for a reply frm HSA - planning to go for Genomar interview to check out the proj - BPT proj (24 July) - TE PBL 1 & 2 - LAST tut (3rd July) - BPT tut quiz (10th July) skipped BPT lec today cos of stomach upset. still feeling quite bad. =( argh. ITAS food! result: - sleep deprivation - no appetite - low productivity - lousy mood i've never really had stomach upset before.. =S 好朋友，我希望我们之间的友情永不变如果有所改变，也只是变得更好。不知如何解释，但我就是有种强烈的感觉你将是我的知己。 mutual? haha.. don't know! who knows wad the future holds.. but i do want to know though.. lol hmmm.. simply not in a very good mood Tuesday, June 30, 2009 ·